this may be a tough time for u, its the first time i know.
they may think ur slack, no interest in your work, but sadly they dont see ur effort put in.
u may receive nasty comments, stuff that may discourage u to move on, i know how it feels ive been through the same.
what i have to say is, the system is like that, these are the extra stuff u dont really have to brood over.
believe in yourself, for us friends believe in you! and we'll always be there to support u and encourage u on.
hope u make the right choice and work towards it! im sure you'll be satisfied at the end of the day :)

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